Saturday, April 30, 2011

Still alright!

Well, here we are on a sunny Saturday morning. It's still quite cold here, but it's supposed to warm up! I am so glad that we will be able to get outside today. I need that!

This week in many ways was uneventful. That's a good thing really! The husband went back to work, and if it weren't for my residual feelings of panic, I wouldn't have known that the last 2 weeks existed. We're all trying to be very normal.

The big event of the week was that he went to the doctor! He was put on an anti-depressant, and he is taking it. We'll see how it helps once it starts to work.

Another big thing is that we're being very honest with one another. I think that this just may bring us closer. At least we're able to realize that we still love one another and willing to take steps to make this better. If we're happier, the kids will be happier too.

I'm trying to take this one day at a time. We're both trying to move forward, and that's very positive. I think what I really need to do is concentrate on making me better. People like me forget about ourselves or don't take care of ourselves when we are focused on the damaged/sick people in our lives. I haven't been taking very good care of me. I am however back to eating, but I haven't been eating the right things. My anxiety level is still very high. I need to calm down. The truth is that I'm afraid to let my guard down and relax. Can you blame me?

Anyway, I am still quite alive and doing okay. I'm looking forward to being out in the sun today.

I made the right decision to call my father-in-law last week, and I am glad that he was able to help. The husband doesn't seem to resent it either. He seems to realize that I did it out of love. I wanted to surround him with people that love him and want to help him. I didn't do it as a tattletale. We're in our late 30s here lol.

So for now I'm quite calm. Not as calm as I would like, but I will take it over the chaos.

I haven't been online much. I am way behind on reading blogs!

Hope it's sunny and nice where ever you are today too!


  1. wonderful, so glad ya'll have taken positive steps. the 1st one is always the hardest and you did that when you called your father in law, i'm glad you're both trying to make things work, best of luck with it all, i KNOW you'll be successful! xoxoxoxoxo

  2. Thanks Timothy! I have to get caught up on reading your blog! Your support means a lot!

  3. Happy for your personal sunshine and the weather you are having. We are in the sun as well. Got the windows open doing some housekeeping and shopping and keeping my mind off of boredom feeding.
    Let us all just shine today, okay?